The Pacifist
War clouds gather, here comes the rain. |
War
never changes.
War
loves courage. War loves passion.
War
loves peace.
War
loves piecing macabre tales, end on end, and death after death.
War
loves retelling survivor story after survivor story, forgetting the guilt, the
hurt and the anguish of unchained memory.
We
are, after all, in so many ways, just prisoners of war.
Prisoners,
you and I. Enslaved. (Though not of the same wars.)
And
everywhere I go now, I see prisoners- prisoners of hope, prisoners by betrayal
and prisoners by choice.
The
ropes that bind the fragile wrists of one are ropes that rescue another.
While
the non-combatant reads between the (side) lines of War,
The
Pacifier realises that this is War in all its forms.
This
is loss in all its forms.
War
loves patience. War loves endurance.
War
loves loss.
Loss-
when you lose something you thought you’d never have to live without.
Loss-
when you lose something you fought so hard to hold on to.
Loss-
when you face the kind of hurt you truly want to heal but can’t.
They
call it phantom pain.
Someone,
something’s missing, but your mind tricks you into believing that they’re, its-
still there.
It’ll
be easier this way- or so you thought.
And
no one blames you. You never received a forewarning to stay away from the
hypnotic hurricane of emotional trauma.
You
simply couldn't accept that the poorly timed first aid kit could have never
actually made you complete again.
The
war machines carved your name on the tomb but you unburied the grave, unearthed
yourself and kept fighting nevertheless.
You
held on. You fought the war.
And
War loves dark clouds. War loves flawed elements of life.
War
loves wreckage.
And
so, War ruins you. But sometimes, War fixes you.
Sometimes
you fight and you choose to stay.
Sometimes
you fight, and you let your past walk away.
Sometimes
you fight for hope- tooth and nail, and you expect it to last for all eternity.
Because
you're fighting to survive- it's the only way you know how.
But
sometimes you have to fight against your better judgment, to let go.
It
is finally time to surrender.
The
waving white flag is proof that when life pulled the trigger, you did not give
up.
Yes,
you did not love War like Life did.
Yes,
you would lay down your arms before the battle begun, if you could.
If
only Life would rather love than fight.
You
stumble upon the battlefields you once feared.
They’re
dead bullets now, your tears.
It
is now your new reality, yet again a new War.
New
fights to fight- but you don’t know what you’re fighting for.
“Keep
marching on”, so they said.
“Think
not with your heart, but with your head instead.
It’s
not weak to be weak anymore.
And
you’re not just the remnant of a War you fought before.”
For
all the Wars you've won and lost, you were never an unsung hero in your own
eyes.
What
you fought for lives on as your legacy.
What
is gone is gone forever.
What
you loved lives on as your story.
What you lost may return never.
(Si vis pacem, para bellum.)
Si vis pacem, para bellum ❤
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